well today wasnt a good day for eating. LOL! i wouldnt call it s much binge eating, but if ya look at it, it was. for lunch i gave in and ate a veggie and cheese personal pizza, the whole thing, came home ate a yogurt cup, and handful of marshamallows, a square of hersey's chocolate with peanutbutter, more marshmallows, then dinner (with more sour cream than i usually allow myself) some strawberries and bananas with whipped cream... and like 2 more mini marshmallows. =O all from like noon to 6 sporatically! was i depressed? no. did i feel bad after? no. do i feel crappy now? not really. its just man did i have bad cramps today and a way i have learned to deal with it is to eat a lot of dairy and munch almost nonstop! and since i dont have any healthy snacks right now, i really just grabbed what ever was in sight. D: so horrible! why do my cravings get so bad!? geeze!
if it werent for the fact that i'd need to get a pap smear to get more, id SOO go back on the pill right now. it really helped me deal with all these side effects of the horrible thing called menstration! **grumble grumble**
<3
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
can't wait...
ahhh! so i havent been shopping since before christmas so its a good 3 months since ive bought any non workout clothes. but BAH! been shopping all weekend and i cannot wait till ima a size L. because xl is too large on the boob part and like 3 inches too long! but L is still too snug! rawr! being between sizes sucks, but is a nice feeling. i was a size L freshman year in HS then was an XXL buy junior year. :D c'mon ariana! you can do it!
so this thursday is going to be my weigh in, but i should start my period this wednesday so i think im gonna push it back until NEXT thursday because gosh does being on my period throw off my weigh-ins! PLUS! next week is spring break! w00t! i kinda want to do a "burn a whole crap load of calories" type challenge like Greggers did, burning 1000 a day for a full week! im thinking of aiming for 800 a day. yeah. that would be awesome!
let me tell you a story about a burn!
so last Sunday i burned my finger on the cigarette lighter in my car when by bro was messing with it. and it huuurt! all night! it was just my index finger's tip but my whole arm was throbbing in pain! the next morning i woke up and no pain, but it was all tender and i had NO FEELING in half my finger. no lie. i couldnt feel when my finger was touching things! =O the next day a white blister a appeared and feeling came back all but in the actual burn area. (whoo! thank goodness) and im slowly getting regular feeling back! yay! i was scared for a second i had burned my nerves off or something! :D
so this thursday is going to be my weigh in, but i should start my period this wednesday so i think im gonna push it back until NEXT thursday because gosh does being on my period throw off my weigh-ins! PLUS! next week is spring break! w00t! i kinda want to do a "burn a whole crap load of calories" type challenge like Greggers did, burning 1000 a day for a full week! im thinking of aiming for 800 a day. yeah. that would be awesome!
let me tell you a story about a burn!
so last Sunday i burned my finger on the cigarette lighter in my car when by bro was messing with it. and it huuurt! all night! it was just my index finger's tip but my whole arm was throbbing in pain! the next morning i woke up and no pain, but it was all tender and i had NO FEELING in half my finger. no lie. i couldnt feel when my finger was touching things! =O the next day a white blister a appeared and feeling came back all but in the actual burn area. (whoo! thank goodness) and im slowly getting regular feeling back! yay! i was scared for a second i had burned my nerves off or something! :D
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
wednesday!
so like good think i am over the girl scout cookies at work. ugh! i ate too many and now i look at them and feel sick! =P
i havent been going to the gym as much as i want to, but i was busy over the weekend moving rooms and ive been kinda on hot coals with my mom all week. rawr!
OH! i got yelled at! heres the story:
i was late for work on monday and when i pulled up to the shopping center, all the parking spaces were gone, foundone, but someone stole it from me last second! fustrated, i pulled into a parking space that we rly srent supposed to park in, its supposed to be save d for cutomers, but HECK! i was late and wa slike "just the once! what could happen?!"
so i get off start waslking to work, and a guy in an orange shirt stops me and says.
"you know, you ought to be ashamed of your self!"
me: "..."
"this is prime parking for customers to these fine establishments and you should be ashamed that you are taking their parking!"
me: **the ONE time i park where im not supposed to i get cought...**
"you go back over ther MISSY and move your car.."
me: *this dude SOO not treating me like a 12 year old right now is he?.. yes he is!"
"because those parking spaces are cor cust-"
me: "YEAH YEAH! i KNOW! ive been yelled at before (about a year ago). im late for work soo.. BYE!" **startes to trot away quickly**
"OH NO YOU DONT! move your car! **dude steps in front of me**
me: "NO! IM LATE FOR WORK! GOTTA GO! maybe sometime later?" **squirms away**
"if you dont move your car right now, im calling Dan (owner of my store) and reporting you!"
me: **this effer just threatened me didnt he!?** OK fine! BYE!
turns out the dude is the owner of teh resturant next to my store. screw him. the guy that works there always complains about him and now i agree, he is a jerk. funny thing is i saw him leave like 30 mins later... his car parked in the area in front of MY store.
rawr! i went running that night after work. LOL!
but my back has been hurting, like in between my shoulder blades. its so uncomforable!
been eating well tho. so all is good.
i havent been going to the gym as much as i want to, but i was busy over the weekend moving rooms and ive been kinda on hot coals with my mom all week. rawr!
OH! i got yelled at! heres the story:
i was late for work on monday and when i pulled up to the shopping center, all the parking spaces were gone, foundone, but someone stole it from me last second! fustrated, i pulled into a parking space that we rly srent supposed to park in, its supposed to be save d for cutomers, but HECK! i was late and wa slike "just the once! what could happen?!"
so i get off start waslking to work, and a guy in an orange shirt stops me and says.
"you know, you ought to be ashamed of your self!"
me: "..."
"this is prime parking for customers to these fine establishments and you should be ashamed that you are taking their parking!"
me: **the ONE time i park where im not supposed to i get cought...**
"you go back over ther MISSY and move your car.."
me: *this dude SOO not treating me like a 12 year old right now is he?.. yes he is!"
"because those parking spaces are cor cust-"
me: "YEAH YEAH! i KNOW! ive been yelled at before (about a year ago). im late for work soo.. BYE!" **startes to trot away quickly**
"OH NO YOU DONT! move your car! **dude steps in front of me**
me: "NO! IM LATE FOR WORK! GOTTA GO! maybe sometime later?" **squirms away**
"if you dont move your car right now, im calling Dan (owner of my store) and reporting you!"
me: **this effer just threatened me didnt he!?** OK fine! BYE!
turns out the dude is the owner of teh resturant next to my store. screw him. the guy that works there always complains about him and now i agree, he is a jerk. funny thing is i saw him leave like 30 mins later... his car parked in the area in front of MY store.
rawr! i went running that night after work. LOL!
but my back has been hurting, like in between my shoulder blades. its so uncomforable!
been eating well tho. so all is good.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Its been a long day...
ahh! so my mom got pink slipped today and it like totally sucks because we have no clue of she will have a job this fall. D: rawr!
im being kicked out of my current room, its nice and big but no longer mine. my mom i going to build a bathroom and mini ktchen in there and then rent it out, as well as renting out my older brothers room and hopefully be able to rent those two out for an extra $1200 a month and that plus umemployment money would be enough to barely cover the morgage and blah blah blah! mom wants me to get more hours at work la la la! ahh! omg! its so overwelming! so many different things could happen or not happen and soo much is at stake!
its insanity! ive been feeling down all day! BLAH!
ariana id trying to see the bright side and such but it gets harder everyday with the economy as crappy as it is. )'=
gotta keep positive! gotta keep positive!
so this weekend will be spent moving all my crap back into a very small room. yargh!
<3 <3 doing well wieght loss wise tho. im lovin it!
im being kicked out of my current room, its nice and big but no longer mine. my mom i going to build a bathroom and mini ktchen in there and then rent it out, as well as renting out my older brothers room and hopefully be able to rent those two out for an extra $1200 a month and that plus umemployment money would be enough to barely cover the morgage and blah blah blah! mom wants me to get more hours at work la la la! ahh! omg! its so overwelming! so many different things could happen or not happen and soo much is at stake!
its insanity! ive been feeling down all day! BLAH!
ariana id trying to see the bright side and such but it gets harder everyday with the economy as crappy as it is. )'=
gotta keep positive! gotta keep positive!
so this weekend will be spent moving all my crap back into a very small room. yargh!
<3 <3 doing well wieght loss wise tho. im lovin it!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
The Invasion...
so as most people know.. its girl scout cookie time.
they are everywhere! tempting you with their oh so delicious but defiantly never nutritious goods. those dang girl scouts are so dang cute as well. i just give em donations but never accept a box of em. JUST TAKE MY MONEY AND LEAVE ME ALONE! lol.
but at work we got girl scout cookies as toppings.... and not just thin mints.. BUT ALL 8 TYPES OF COOKIES! D: D:
and of course me and my co-workers like sampled mostly every cookie and then kept sneaking more in. they have these ones that are covered in peanut butter AND chocolate! HOLY CRAP! yum! AHH! run away ariana! its been hard to say no, but luckily on monday i burned about 700 claories at the gym (i usually only burn 300!) and tonight after work i worked off a good 400. :D im proud of myself but if i wouldnt have eaten those cookies im sure it would show a little more.
but i am proud to say that on monday i ate too many cookies and today when i tried eating some they didnt taste as good to me. <3 yay!
still a horrible situation.
yay! no work till friday!
they are everywhere! tempting you with their oh so delicious but defiantly never nutritious goods. those dang girl scouts are so dang cute as well. i just give em donations but never accept a box of em. JUST TAKE MY MONEY AND LEAVE ME ALONE! lol.
but at work we got girl scout cookies as toppings.... and not just thin mints.. BUT ALL 8 TYPES OF COOKIES! D: D:
and of course me and my co-workers like sampled mostly every cookie and then kept sneaking more in. they have these ones that are covered in peanut butter AND chocolate! HOLY CRAP! yum! AHH! run away ariana! its been hard to say no, but luckily on monday i burned about 700 claories at the gym (i usually only burn 300!) and tonight after work i worked off a good 400. :D im proud of myself but if i wouldnt have eaten those cookies im sure it would show a little more.
but i am proud to say that on monday i ate too many cookies and today when i tried eating some they didnt taste as good to me. <3 yay!
still a horrible situation.
yay! no work till friday!
Monday, March 9, 2009
Starting Couch to 5K
so april 25,2009 is game time! im going to give my try at a 5Krun/walk at school and i want it to be mostly run with little walking.
im on week 2 of C25K and am i sore! but it feels great.
i love it.
since my bro got me a gym pass i even go work out twice a day sometimes. after school at the school gym and then after work at the 24 hour fitness thats next to my job. [:
dont want to over do it tho so i have to put a limit to the amount of time i can spend. i dont want to like kill my drive by working too hard in the begining and then not working hard enough at the end.
its been interesting lately tho. my two best friends are out of state so im stuck here in southern california with good friends, but not friends that i can tell anything an everything to, bit ive been learning lately, that theres these two betches at work who i consider more than just co-workers. its a nice feeling!! <3
and omg! my bestest friend ever is coming home sometime this month! im excited! i get to see her for like a couple days before she leaves to her air force base in idaho again. i only see he rlike twice a year but she still rocks.
im on week 2 of C25K and am i sore! but it feels great.
i love it.
since my bro got me a gym pass i even go work out twice a day sometimes. after school at the school gym and then after work at the 24 hour fitness thats next to my job. [:
dont want to over do it tho so i have to put a limit to the amount of time i can spend. i dont want to like kill my drive by working too hard in the begining and then not working hard enough at the end.
its been interesting lately tho. my two best friends are out of state so im stuck here in southern california with good friends, but not friends that i can tell anything an everything to, bit ive been learning lately, that theres these two betches at work who i consider more than just co-workers. its a nice feeling!! <3
and omg! my bestest friend ever is coming home sometime this month! im excited! i get to see her for like a couple days before she leaves to her air force base in idaho again. i only see he rlike twice a year but she still rocks.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
a very late update
last time i updated here was last wednesday! oops! sorry! just last week was both the happiest week ive had in a while.. as well the first week in a while that i have gotten really truly depressed. i have a vlog of me at my lowest and i kinda want to upload it, but not. i dont know.
but im doing much better now!
i have goteen 3 A's on my miterms so far and am waiting for my government grade.
oh! i weighed in at 182 like last week this week and am not going to touch the scale for the next 3 weeks. i promise. if i finally get out of the 180's i dont want to know about it until im securely in the 170's and THEN i will celebrate!
but im doing much better now!
i have goteen 3 A's on my miterms so far and am waiting for my government grade.
oh! i weighed in at 182 like last week this week and am not going to touch the scale for the next 3 weeks. i promise. if i finally get out of the 180's i dont want to know about it until im securely in the 170's and THEN i will celebrate!
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